What a fantastic week it has been, ringing in the New Year with friends! While I get ready for a 4-hour rehearsal today, I started thinking about events that happened that seems to linger on and on.
Do you ever find yourself drifting back to things you did and think ‘geez, was I stupid’ or ‘why did I act that way???’ or ‘why wasn’t I nicer to that person’? The times that I wish I could change, are the ones that seem to stay in my head forever. And, it’s not the same as regret – although there is a bit of that in there too, but it’s more or less a feeling of sorrow.
But that is not to say that my mistakes are the only events that haunt me. I have had some events that have stayed on, just the same. Like, until I get asked to do something bigger, singing on the 50 yard line at the Washington Redskins game last year was the bomb. (And today is a big day for them – Go Skins!) There are, of course, romantic interludes that I recall, frequently. And while those nights ended, in my mind, they seem to last forever.
We are all, full of memories. Is it ok that we find ourselves living in the past? They tell us to move forward, live in the present, but what if the past makes us nicer and better in the future? What if some memories are so perfect, that we don’t and should not let them go? These are my questions for today.
Now, the band and I are off to making some new memories in Miami this week The whole concert is being taped and then it will be launched on Comcast. Big stuff and big fun. Hope you can make it!
FX